MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY BODY

I've always been a little chubby girl.

While the last year of college, having a crush on a boy, I began to lose weight. It is well known that love cuts hunger ;) However I did not become thin : I still had good thighs, a little bun and kept my big arms too.

In 2007, I began to complex on my body : I ​​went from a "family" middle school (with only 150 students, counting all the classes), to a high school. And the girls in town were much thinner, and much more feminine. I felt as a country girl ! So, besides being chubby, I did not have the last HIT bag, the lasts HIT shoes, etc ... In other words, I was OUT!

My first idea to lose weight comes from my best friend. Her decision to take care of her herself made me realize that I was not meant to be bigger than the others. In last year of High School, she decides to change and loses 10kg ... without exercising. That's when I got the first thought of "and why couldn't I?"

But I left High School to enter College in 2010. It must be admitted that student life is not the healthiest : I went from 59kg to 67kg in 2 years ... + 8kg! Without realizing it obviously. I felt that I was gaining some weight, but I had a boyfriend, he did not complain, so what's the point of torturing my mind?

I was only 23 years when I knew I found my real motivation ...

At the end of my diploma, in 2012, I felt in love for someone else. Naturally, I was in love again so I lost a few pounds, but nothing blatant. Maybe 2kg? He also did not complain about my few extra pounds. I always had in mind the idea "at least he really loves me, and he isn't here for the missing sexy body". The most common excuse to comfort myself in my lamentations ^^

We both went to Perpignan to continue Uni, and I began to feel that I was gaining weight again. We felt good, we ate well, we were happy. But not my scale, nor my mirror! I had taken all my lost pounds, so 66 / 67kg again.

I complained every day, "Do you think I'm fat?" / "I'm sick of being fat" / "I'd like to be like her" and so on, what annoyed him most of the time ! At the end of 2014, I decided to register in a gym, to optimize my lunch time. In 1 year, although I did not pay attention to what I was eating, I lost 2kg ... It's not much, but it's always something!

And it is in November 2015, that I saw on Facebook a before / after picture. I figured that it still had to be a trick with "miracles" pills. But too curious and too desperate, I went checking. And that's where I came across the page of Sonia Tlev and her TopBodyChallenge program. And WOW, look at those transformations!

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I looked at my boyfriend, and I asked "Would you like me to lose weight? Because I would feel better, and you would no longer hear me complaining!"

Without even waiting for his answer, I embrace the adventure, and here I was as a TopBodyChallenge girl !

My first attempt was a failure : I held 7 weeks, then I gave up. I did not see results, it was hard. And do you know why ?! Because the Christmas holidays were coming, and all I wanted was to eat chocolate, foie gras, ... fat stuff !!

Please note I wrote that I had no results because I did not really balance my food, I only avoid sugar and bakeries.

After the holidays, I regretted my decision so much ... I spent two weeks on Sonia Tlev facebook account in order to scroll ALL the before / after pics, to save in my phone those which motivated me the most, and to watch them every night. To envy these girls, to guess the feeling of satisfaction once so many results are obtained, and to wonder if REALLY I was able too ?

It was on the 25th of January 2016 that I took the decision to stop crying over my fate. I understood that crying over the pictures of those who had succeeded would not make me lose my fat. So I started again, I really kicked my butt, and I always tried to think positively since.

And I can tell that it worked pretty good for me!